rambling – tumblr is going to shit

you know when you see a person on this hellsite and your instant reaction to the trivial discourse they decide to engulf themselves in is just ‘’op calm the fuck down’’ like honestly we really need to learn to stop drowning ourselves in this kind of culture? as a person who used to be really engulfed in discourse, it’s not important. you can have arguments but if you’re dedicating your tumblr to discourse, no matter what side of the argument you’re on, or your tumblr page is rife with posts surrounding discourse even though your blog is supposed to be general, you need to step back and reevaluate your priorities. do something you like. like i honestly don’t give a shit if i lose followers for it and i don’t even watch, say, voltron (now this is just an example, cuz the fandom is real shitty) if your priorities and defining caption in your blog description is ‘’PLEASE TELL ME IF I REBLOG FROM NASTY SHALLIES’’, i really have to ask. why do you give a shit about what fictional characters are fucking? i could also say the same for anyone on the opposite side of the argument but it’s sad that it’s some people’s priority in life. it used to be mine, like, fair enough, but surrounding yourself in trivial shit like ship wars is mentally degrading and a waste of time. there are actual issues and societal standings that deserve recognition and fight over and ya’ll are over here fighting about some people abt shit like ships and whitewashing cookies. idk man. it just isn’t healthy. report a pedophile or argue with a transphobe if you want discourse. lichrally calm your shits and take a seat, drink some tea, reblog some nice memes and reevaluate your priorities. tell your mom you love her, man, idk. i see a lot of this shit on tumblr and i used to be like that, like, pretty recently actually and i know this post may come across as hypocritical because it lacks the brevity to sound calm but i genuinely think it’s a problem

in short, engage more in things you like, it makes you a lot happier as a person

so a lot of people have asked me why i ship soudam, or they even excuse souda/gundam as a ‘’fujoshi ship’’ (newsflash – it’s not), so here i’ve written basically an essay on why I ship it, why it’s not a fujoshi ship, and to the others, just an explanation. hope i can drag yall down the soudam hole with me! also, lemme note that this is gonna be long.

in the canon of the game, souda and gundam fight all the time over sonia and even exchange death threats. this is an incredibly unhealthy canon relationship and i can see the iffy factor of it as they seem to quite literally want eachother dead. no one should enter a relationship with someone else in this state of mind as it’s bound to have negative effects and ensures the relationship is doomed to abusive habit from the start.

but that’s not why i ship it. that’s not all i see in soudam – two guys who absolutely loathe eachother in favor of a princess. i ship it because i believe that it could actually be mutually beneficial and they could benefit off eachother more than they would (in some cases – sondam is incredibly good aswell) with sonia.

first, i want to look at their relationships with sonia. no hate on sonia x souda, but it’s really unhealthy with souda being viewed as sonia’s stalker, and sonia doesn’t seem to treat him too well either. i don’t mind at all other people shipping this, but it doesn’t seem healthy. full stop.

sonia and gundam is a better and more wholesome ship because it’s mutual and basically canon. however, gundam is… delusional as we all know, and sonia does nothing but reinforce this habit. she also grew up in a highly different background to him and cannot give him a lot of emotional support on some of the things he’s been through – like the suggested isolation from his peers.

now, the soudam potential is… a tricky one to express. however, i’d like to propose the idea that they could learn to tolerate eachother, even become friends, or eventually take a romantic interest in eachother. something would definitely have to happen to fit in with this scenario that would incite such a situation, but it would prove character development regardless and would show the ability to move on from petty things like… a girl. but that’s not the exciting bit about the soudam potential, because while thinking about souda freaking out because oh god no my former love rival is cute or gundam being oblivious to why he blushes so much around souda is really nice and fluffy, it’s the actual relationship they’d romantically have that is the meat of its potential.

souda and gundam have both been bullied and starved of attention, for starters. i feel like they could resonate with eachother and learn to cope better with that past off of eachother, knowing they aren’t alone and just.. general support like that. it’s obvious it’s taken its toll on both of them and they need attention and love more than almost anything, albeit has it made a mark on them in different ways, with souda becoming an attached crybaby and gundam becoming delusional and favoring the company of animals over humans due to the fact they don’t judge him. souda has been shown to dislike gundam’s delusional stance and while people can grasp all they want about this being one of the factors to why they wouldn’t work out – because souda doesn’t like every single part of gundam – i think it’s quite the contrary. delusional habits aren’t there to be reinforced and a partner that ignores another’s flaws because they ‘’love’’ them is not a healthy relationship as tumblr thinks. it lacks communication and growth and no one will go anywhere as individual people. souda would be willing to love gundam, but be more critical of where he falls flat, like in his delusions, and it could really be a reality check – the same is vice versa, with gundam’s distaste to souda’s habit for stalkerish tendency and the likes. it’s a relationship with actual communication. you know, one that’s healthy.

and not only that, but their flaws that don’t need a critical overview – the ones that need another there to support them. souda is incredibly dependent upon others, cries alot, and is sensitive, and he really, really needs someone patient and understanding and with actual experience with being a caring person. naturally, as gundam is the ultimate breeder, he would be the perfect kind of person for souda in this aspect. gundam is naturally caring because he has a ton of animals and, yeah, souda isn’t an animal, but damn it he’d try his best to comfort his boyfriend. gundam is an independent person who knows how to care for, well, needy puppies and the like, and in theory that’s exactly how souda acts. he doesn’t need someone harsh that tells him to shut up or man up when he’s crying because it’s obvious souda tries so hard to be manly and all that crying is probably from repressed emotion. in my opinion, someone needs to be there to hear him out.

and gundam is incredibly lonely and shy, too. i feel like souda would be incredibly affectionate and the likes, but with the character development i’m entrusting with this post i believe he could definitely learn to respect those boundaries that gundam has. he doesn’t like to be touched and.. yeah, that’d be hard for souda, but it’d teach him to respect boundaries more, as said.

they’d benefit off of eachother in so many ways. i honestly feel like this is actually an opportunity for a healthy relationship and anyone who tries to say soudam is abusive no matter what is grasping at conclusions because they don’t like it, full stop. it involves character development, two people who can actually relate to eachother’s past and offer support, and communication, which is incredibly important. oh god, i can’t stress enough how well they could communicate and work their relationship out if they channeled their fighting into something more productive. even just a friendship seems like a really nice thing for them both to have.

also, their opposing personalities like…. fit so well together? i can just imagine gundam calling souda a bunch of complicated affectionate nicknames like ‘’my paramour’’ and souda still calls him hamster-chan and just. simple white girl shit like ‘’babe’’ its so dshfsd

they’d be so awkward and that’s a big mood to be honest. i can imagine them tryna spoon but souda’s like ‘’my arm is fucking dead’’ and gundam has souda’s hair in his mouth and it’s a lot less pleasant than they expected bec where the fuck did these kids learn to be affectionate? preschool? but also it’s incredibly realistic bec relationships aren’t fluent sunshine and roses. also souda’s the type to ask gundam ‘’no homo right’’ and gundam replies ‘’souda we’ve been married for 5 years’’ like… do u remember that otp post? that’s them honey

and they still argue because god it’d be unrealistic if they didn’t. THAT’S a fujoshi fantasy – their relationship completely changing in favor of their new one. they aren’t going to completely change their views on eachother or change their relationship aspects completely. yes, gundam will still think souda is obnoxious but hey, that’s his obnoxious boyfriend and no one else is allowed to call him that. souda think’s gundam’s weird but it’s kind of endearing. and they fight like an old married couple all the time over the most trivial things and they still annoy the hell out of eachother but they’re in love and it’s awkward and it’s kind of strange – it’s not like what souda imagined, with him having fantasized being the perfect couple with sonia originally instead of sitting here arguing over who’s turn it was to cook dinner with the last person on earth he’d expect to date – but it’s realistic and it’s mutually beneficial. they can grow off of eachother, and honestly? i think that’s what makes it such a good ship.

soudam has a lot of potential, and there is so much more to why i ship them, but this post is long enough so… for anyone wondering, here. it’s not a fujoshi ship – i mean, i’m a lesbian, why the hell would i be a fujoshi in the first place? actually, i think soudam is sort of also like a form of projecting for me – i feel like if i get into a relationship with a girl, i’ll just be… really awkward. but that’s realism, and to hell if i don’t drag anyone else into soudam with me because it’s an incredible, vibrant ship.